3/20/2008

Sitting there...

I sat at the optometrist's office sometime last week and had my eyes dialated and you're supposed to wait a good half hour to see the doctor again. I've never wanted this kind of quiet time more.

The old me probably would've wanted to be doing something - reading a magazine, checking email, talking on the phone. I could never stand silence and now, I savor any treasurous minutes to myself. Just to think or even to clear my head and not think. Hearing no background noise, like everything's muted, is something you don't get anymore. Having a baby changes your life - like EVERYONE says - and this is one of the ways. You no longer have time to yourself.

And so I sat there, closing my eyes, and just sat there.